so i haven't got a job yet but am hoping n i have a couple of places that like me. but then again alot of places liked me but i am still not working!
so i found out a close family member was jailed for things that i never knew for. this person sould be a staple in my life but is not.
i am writing again. it is so hard to get the stories down that play out in my head. poetry is hard to write. i have an idea but i cant get past that.
CONGRATULATIONS MICHAEL PHELPS!! I actually watyched th Olympics this year.

Ok, so I am in a little over a page in a letter that I never thought it would be this hard to write. I always thought with how much crap this person did to me it would be so easy but I realized its not that easy.
i am writing stories n figuring out what i wanna do for the rest of my life. i havent figured it out yet.
i am sick of the rude and dirty comments that i get yelled out at me. they even honk their horn to get my attention so i know its them.

THE END OF 2007

So it is the end of 2007. That's unbelievable to me. i can remember being excited that 2006 was over. so a lot has happened this year.
Virginia tech, successtech, and lots more, but the one that hit close to home, way to close for comfort, was the shootings on Skylane Drive on the Fourth of July. That one my older brothers lost Jake ,Bruce ,and Katie, Three incredible young people i didn't get to know. My oldest brother was there at the end. He had a hard time dealing with it. I was and am still worried about him. I think about this often and start to cry because I realize how close i was to losing somebody i love in such an awful tragic way. Those three died in a way that baffles me. They were happy and then were killed. To see someone shot and killed especially at their own house as was with Jake. We miss and love you all.
I hope next years bring lots of happiness.
I have began a letter to someone that is a long time coming. It should have been written long ago but wasn't due to me being scared of hurting that person feelings but I am choosing to write this letter simply because this person has hurt me way beyond the point of no return. I've learned that this person should know they hurt me as much as they did because they haven't changed and i don't believe ever will.

Ch-ch-changes

okay so last night I went to IHOP. BOY HAVE THINGS CHANGED, BUT THAT IS NOT WHY i WANTED to talk about. My old Bible teacher from my first highschool. was there. it took him a second to remmeber me but he did. I havent seen him in 3 years.
oh and i got an interview wednesday. wish me luck.

You Should Be a Romance Novelist

You see the world as it should be, and this goes double for all matters of the heart. You can find the romance in any situation, and you would make a talented romance story writer... And while you may be a traditional romantic, you're just as likely to be drawn to quirky or dark love stories. As long as it deals with infatuation, heartbreak, and soulmates - you could write it.

What Type of Writer Should You Be?

Your Travel Personality Is: Easygoing

When you travel, you're looking for a lot of downtime. Vacations are your chance to recoup. All you need is a scenic spot and plenty of time on your hands. You'll figure out the rest. You're not one to make lots of plans when you travel. You just follow whatever path seems right.

What's Your Travel Personality?

What Your Peanut Butter And Jelly Sandwich Means

Your eating style is gluttonous. If you like something, you're going back for seconds... no matter how full you are! You have a total sweet tooth. When you can get away with it, you like to have dessert before dinner! Your taste in food tends to be conservative and traditional. It's likely that you prefer "All American" favorites like mac and cheese or hamburgers. Admit it, you're a little trashy and low class at times. You're definitely more comfortable at a tattoo parlor than the theater. You never really grew up. While your childlike innocence is charming, you often just come across as a big baby. You are laid back and extremely easygoing. You never make a fuss, and you try to enjoy every moment.

What Does Your Peanut Butter and Jelly Sandwich Say About You?

this is something that i have been thinking about. I know pepople say its evil but i want your opinio.
i was thinking of trying yoga, whatcha think ya'll?
oh yeah pray for us as our cat who is 1 and 4 months old has been missing for two weeks.

Oky so here's the news. im outta of a job. im not sure why. they gave me a reason but i dont believe it.

but i cant do anything about it. i tried i really did but im not good enough for them.

now i am figuring out my next path. that season is over and now to turn over another leaf.

You Are Austin

A little bit country, a little bit rock and roll. You're totally weird and very proud of it. Artistic and freaky, you still seem to fit in... in your own strange way. Famous Austin residents: Lance Armstrong, Sandra Bullock, Andy Roddick

What American City Are You?

just a thought

Why do we say things are "hot as hell" or "hotter than hell" or something to that effect, when in reality we can't compare anything to hell because we have not much idea as to what hell is like.
i started thinking of this after talking to one guy at work thursday.

baby #2!!!

Yay!!! I am an aunt for the second time. My sis had a lil girl on momma's day. I know no details yet except that shes cute. btw that sounds bad (about the no details)but she's in Florida n i am in Ohio. what can ya do, ya know? Her other daughter Gabby is so excited.
Anyways, I just wanted to post sbout my random joy. God gave me constant joy. I do get random spouts of crying(i dunno the reason) , which sux but whatever.so i sing whenver n i just smile n laugh.
oh another thing people think i am peurto rican which is odd. I am a lot of things but none spanish. i am tan but what makes a peurto rican look it?

IM 19 TODAY!

Happy birthday to me! i am 19 today. happy St. patrick's day to everyone. The weather sux. It always has to snow on my birthday. *sad face* but oh well my sista is in town so yay.
Well thats all for now.

a post finally

ok so i have been wanting to post for a while now. i get up at 3:30 am for work n go to bed at 8 unless i dont have to work the next day or i go to IHOP. Ok so i got an ipod for Christmas and have just recently been getting podcasts. well I got sum from the recent Onething and I was wondering...
First I will explain i was listening to one guy and he was talking on the topic of speaking on tongues and he was explaining how ppl get this gift and how he got it. he talked about how ppl usually think of it as the Spirit takes over ur body n it does it while u just stand there. I just realized that that is how i viewed it as well.
so i was wondering if any of u have that get n could say whatever happened when u got it.

Breakthrough

ok so i now realized what the breakthrough i was thinking about before(hurricane Katrina, i was wondering what it meant prophetically), anyways it is forgiveness. for like almost 3 years now God has been wanting me to forgive and now i am ready finally. i have been praying the song TRADING MY SORROWS and I am now starting to do that and I have gotten so much joy. Thank You God!

to my beloved Ralph

my beloved cat passed yesterday somewhere between 6-9am. i miss you buddy. We had ralph for at least 11 years.

We miss you and so does Furball.

HowManyOfMe.com

There are: 0 people with my name in the U.S.A. how/'>http://howmanyofme.com">How many have your name?

thoughts

i believe that children can speak directly to God. i dont pray before meals but my niece does and i love her prayer.

God is good.

God is great. God, please bless this meal

in Jesus' name

Amen

I loved my time with her. she loves worship music and church and etc.. she has a heart for God. i didnt start raising my hand in worship until a few years ago and yet she does it alrtready. i am so happy with her and how she is being raised. the first day i got there after her mom left for work she started singing Word of God, Speak. I love that she is 6 and is in love with God already. I want to have my children like that.

a cool saying

Here is the magnet that is at my sis's house.

Dance as though no one is watching.

Love as though you have nver been hurt before.

Sing as though no one can hear you.

Live as though heaven is on earth.

-Souza

A jornal entry

I have written a blog lately since I watch my niece Gabby n Brianna(she is my sis's roomate's daghter) they are 6, well gabby will be 6 on 8-3. Anyways this was a journal i wrote after reading A passion for Jesus( not all of it only some).
Why do we(humans) rationalize everything? Becase we are human. we need evidence or like a tangible thing. The idea of God not having a body is just so crazy for s that we put a face, a body on HIM, even though HE doesn't have one.

florida

so i am currently in florida. my sis lives in a gated community which i8 thought it would be cool but the bad part is there r nio stores i can walk to. n i dont think there's an ihop around. n i dont kno too many ppl. they have a pool but there r no ppl my age around. mainly like 5 or 13-15. butt me hanging with sis is coool. the weather is fun. i have been to the pool every day since i came so hahaha.

freedom

I will be having my graduation party saturday and sometimee the fllowing week i will be going to florida to visit my sis n niece. im gonna be down there for at leat a month maybe more.

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

it is officially over. i am now a graduate of highschool!!!

my last week of hs ever...

I have just finished my last week of H.S. ever. We had a senior cookout saturday. I got there at about 5:15, i got up at 3:30AM. early I know but it was soo much fun. we had prom saturday, I had no date but my dad drove me there in an all white audi. it was fun. i had this really pretty gold dress that sum lady told hertdaughter looked more suitable for a weddnig but her daughter wanted it for graduation. i have graduation on friday. we ahd afterprom later that nite til 4am. the senior could win prizes but i wont nada. i wsh i coulda won sumthin but oh well.

i reread amy's blog about healing. n that has been on my mind. my uncle had cancer , ppl's parents(josh l). iz n so many more. but i thought of me simply bk I am young n i have heart problems that most ppl my age or any dont deal w/. u see I have a hole in the rightr side of my heart which results in pulmonary regugitation(blood goes both ways as opposed to one way. I found out after a stress test n heart monitor that a valve in my hearet is leaking which i will hsave to have open-heart surgery to fix but i hasve to have another stress test to find out how soon or late i wll have to have the surgery again.
dan told me he doesnt go to worldview ne more. ne1 kno y?

chug, chug, chug

I am never, well for a while, drinking milk. U ever heard of that contest? drink a gallon of milk in a hour. well the guys in my class did that taped it n we watched in monday in my ethics class. 1 girl walked out. now i gag if i try to drink moilk, chocalte, strawberry, any kind. I CANT!!

just to prove...

that I am not Danny V. I need a job. I want to work in a bookstore or babysit young kids, like realy, really young.. monday we got our cap n gowns. it made our day. we get back a week from monday n then we have 25 days left!!!!! I am going to Florida in august to visit with my sister n niece. my sister is 7 yrs older than me n my niece is 12 yrs. younger than me.
in my etics class, we r talking about relationships, but currently n more specifically the roles of men n women in a marriage. all of us girls r getting mad at this article we had to read on the topic n the guys think its funny about "wiives submitting to husbands" part. They just dont get it. My teacher talked about this verse but his interpretation irked me n like every girl in my class. I heard ppl talk about this thing b4 but the interpretation this time really bugged me.
Its...
1Tim 2:11-14
11A woman should learn in quietness and full submission. 12I do not permit a woman to teach or to have authority over a man; she must be silent. 13For Adam was formed first, then Eve. 14And Adam was not the one deceived; it was the woman who was deceived and became a sinner. (NIV)
can u please help me get this verse bk from what my teacher taljed about, Im mad.

I took bek's mc challenge n the first time sucked but this last one taught me sumthin.
I did it on Jeremiah 29:14. The one thing that came to mind was about 3 yrs. ago, I was at my mom's house with my brothers, sister, n 3 y. old niece. she wanted to brush my hair so she got a brush n started to when she was done she said "You look beautiful." Well god called me beautiful n it made me so happyy, both times.

ok in CAPTIVATING and it tlks about the role of women n how we r man's ezer kengedo(SP?). which the closest translation is lifemate. i have met sooo many guys who have our role all wrong, they believe we are here to take care of them while they work n watch tv. But they are wrong God created us as equal. Captivating talks of us being the crowning glory of creation. we r the last thing created. It wasnt right until God created woman.
thats all for now more later.

so I got CAPTIVATING, recently n I've been reading. I was goona read it chapter by chapter but, but it was too good. so Im good have to read it 4 or 5 times to actuallty learn from it.
In my ethics class we r talking about prayer. I cant believe I have like 70sumthin days left. Ethics is the SENIOR religion course. I hope I can get somebody ethics notebook at the end of the year.
Anybody have any recipes since us seniors get to have a party in the parking lot.

Hey guys!
Well I wasnt able to go to the bookstore but I recently went to kmart n got a purse n Captivating. I love it! Im only on like chapter 2 or 3 but its so awesome!
Finals went good, I got an A on my Eng. final n a B on my Christian Ethics finals. so Im happy.

HEY!!

Hey guys!
nuthin much has been happening. Finals r this week, so hope i do good. im going to the bookstore saturday n hoping i find mike bickle books. in libraries they neer have good books except the ihop library.

Yay!

I got accepted to Tri-C!!!!!! I kno its noty a huge colleg butI'm going to college. I got the letter today. I wasnt sure how I would be told.
Merry Christmas!

sry I've been doing a Dan V. on u all but I just didn't update.
anyways,today i got to paint n I painted like I was 5. literally. But I dont care it looked kewl.
Bek's havin another baby.
n I wanna check out WVCC but i dont drive n no way is my dad gonna get up that early to drop me off. so I think its gonna be a while.
I need a job. Im applying to tri-high! hope i get in!

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

You are a Believer

You believe in God and your chosen religion.Whether you're Christian, Muslim, Jewish, or Hindu..Your convictions are strong and unwavering.You think your religion is the one true way, for everyone.

What's" Your Religious Philosophy?

Your Personality Profile

You are pure, moral, and adaptable. You tend to blend into your surroundings. Shy on the outside, you're outspoken to your friends. You believe that you live a virtuous life... And you tend to judge others with a harsh eye. As a result, people tend to crave your approval.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

so much has happened. ok not really.
basically a guy from my old highscool who graduated in 03 was killed on saturday n his funeral is friday but i need a ride. i miss him even though i knew him for like a year.

nuthin much has been going on. my foot has been botherin me but now its better. my doctor couldnt figure it out n the x-ray guy told me what he was doing in med skool terms n i had no idea what he was talking about nor did i care.
im looking up books i want.
n in my ethics class we r talkin about homosexuality. btw ewwwwwwww not the gay part but what we r learning. i dont get how this concerns ethics but whatever.
u kno what i wanna do is make a funky t-shirt.
whats the song from thoise vonage commercials? i luv it!

heaven is like taking a hot bath, eating the most amazing chocolate covered cheesecake, reading the most beautiful romance novel, dancing w/ the most amazing person to the most beautiful song.
It's like being with the one u love n cherish the most.

i went to lakeview cemetery for a field trip. my feet legs n back r killing me. i learned that i am either afraid of heights or falling off of somethin reallyyyyyyyyyyyyyy high up.

i cant be put in a room for 5 hrs. w/ nuthin to do even w/ ppl i like in it. w/ no tv, music, or computer. i go crazy. i cant sleep. i had no food or drink nor did i have money for it. that reminds me i got a job liuke 2 wks ago n i still havent worked. it sux.
so if anybody knos of a job opening lemme kno.

this is jut to prove thjat i am not DAN. i luvyas dan. lol
i am taking a photography class n i like it. i like it a lot! hehe im learning how to develop pics. its kinda cool. but we r uising a pinhole camera. i made it. so ya it sux.

blah blah

im sooo bored. wow i typed the word b4 i thought of it. lol hehe im tired.
well last nite i searched this site 4 ihoppper blogs that i dont kno but there arent that many. that sux. most ppl never heard of ihop(international house of prayer) but thoose who do dont go. i dont get it.

ok i kno the hurricane was bad but dude do we have to hear about it. they sux so freakin much. i mean they judge u yet they kno veryyyyyyyyy little about u. i mean u have to be a certain way or theyll just be mean to u. whats sux the most is that i have to see them like for a while.whatever.im bored. tired n got nothing to do.

blogs

blogs have become a big part of pop culture. a lot of christians have blog which is really good. we should keep them. i think they r easy n fun. i wonder who thought of them.

ppl (hint hint) need to update their blog n comment on blogs.. u need to keep up w/ them.

slow days..

the hours of the day r slow but the days r going by fast. i've been reading sum books on how to get a God- written love story but God has told me to do stuff that I dont wanna.

soon to be...

yesterday, i sat in my backyard in the shade n wrote out the qualities that I want in the guy that I'm gonna marry. I dont kno y I did but I felt as if I should.

hurricane me

how do they name hurricanes? i got one named after me. im a category 5 now. lol!
im so bored. i miss summer. watch out ppl im comin lol

happy happy joy joy

im happy! today im getting cable. FINALLY! there is nothin good on regular t.v i cant wait for cable. the ihop internship starts tonite. so thats fun. i kno at least there will be 1 person i reconize there. lol
butttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt...
this bad feeling i had b4 is bak. which totally sux cuz its messin uo my happiness.i kno what it is n how to make it go away for a little bit but it comes back. i hate it!

just wondering...

have u ever had a heavy heart and wondered y? or had a dream that u didnt get? or something happen to u that makes u wonder y me or y now?
i have. i had plenty of those. but u just have to deal with it. its hard but u gotta do it.

i wonder when we learn when its appropriate to be loud n when its time to be quiet. i mean izzy just goes crazy whenever he wants to. he could be just in ur laps n he scream/laughs/ whatever. its so cute.

I was just thinkin...

have u ever wondered what goes thru a baby's mind? i mean we really dont kno what they r thinking when they discover new things. im serious. We dont kno if they like baths or naptime (usually they let us kno by cryin until they sleep!), but anyways we really dont kno. somehow their actions teach us soimethin. we kno so much more yet somehow they teach us sumthin thats amazing.

a cool verse

Matthew 21. 18- 22
The Fig Tree Withers
18Early in the morning, as he was on his way back to the city, he was hungry. 19Seeing a fig tree by the road, he went up to it but found nothing on it except leaves. Then he said to it, "May you never bear fruit again!" Immediately the tree withered.
20When the disciples saw this, they were amazed. "How did the fig tree wither so quickly?" they asked.
21Jesus replied, "I tell you the truth, if you have faith and do not doubt, not only can you do what was done to the fig tree, but also you can say to this mountain, 'Go, throw yourself into the sea,' and it will be done. 22If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer."
This is one of the funniest verses!! Jesus is hungry, walked by a tree, and curses it b/k it has no fruit oin it. how coolis that! I mean he just curses a freakin tree cuzz' it has no fruit! DUDE>> That's awesome!!!

The One

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."

me rambling on..

I have seen visions of me and God laying in bed and on a hammock. I see myself pregnant one day. But Im so happy that I was able to see ppl from GCCS. I just wish that it would have never shut down. They became more of a family to me than my family. I love you guys. GCCS was the best school but unfortunately shut down June 2oo4. I love you Lions(GCCS mascot).